maellum | ETRAYA

[That's actually comforting to hear. They're not just all fucked.]

I know he feels guilty. He's apologized for not being there for me. It's not his fault. He said he would understand if I were angry with him for dying, too, which is--it's almost funny if he wasn't... serious.

That's sort of where we're at.

/Doy. It doesn't matter if it's his fault or not. Objectively, he wasn't there. That hurts a lot.

So, is avoiding this forever an option and pretending nothing is wrong or? Just asking. I mean, I can tell. But between you guys./

It does hurt a lot. For everyone.

Avoiding it only causes more trouble down the road. We're just sort of at a loss as to how to make it less miserable.

I hate knowing he's in pain.

/Time is what you do. Letting time help you slip back into your roles. A nudge here and there. Not forcing, but letting it happen when it does.

Well, he probably hates to know you are in pain, too. Have a little hope with your sad shit, yeah? You guys did promise me proficiency at that./

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Yeah. We did. He's always been the one with hope. I would always get a look or a talk when I was too depressing.

/Then step up yourself. If he isn't, well. Why not you?/

When he would say things, I'd believe it. I don't know if it's the same coming from your sixteen year old foster sister.

/Oh, wow, what was it that he said to me though? 'Her thoughts and opinions matter to me? I ask her advice and I take it?', mmm. Sounds like it might be.

Just do it, Maelle./

[FINE.]

Is your real power probably being right most of the time?

/Oh my... HAHAHA, cripes, no! Actually, I think if you said that around here, we'd all literally laugh ourselves to death.

I'm sometimes really, really right, that's all./